It may have been the post-Student's Fest blues which hit me like a brick (like every single year so far), but still, this shed a light on several things I didn't know about myself. I used to hear other people quoting the famous proverb, "no man is an island" and I used to laugh at them deep down. I used to think that that meant that one was dependant on others, and that that made someone less of a man, so-to-speak.
However, I think that now I have a better understanding of what that saying actually means. I realized that I fear being alone. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I am afraid of the everyday life doing stuff on my own. But I'm talking about the fact how everyone in life eventually moves on, and the idea of getting eventually excluded out of the social circles currently I'm in, I just realized that it scares me ... quite a lot! And I realize I don't want to turn 35 or 40 and realize that I'd have traded my friends, family and any potential relationships away in favour of a career. Career pays the bills and support the lifestyle, but its friends and family that support someone into achieving their goals in life.
Now, after spending a whole week at home, where I literally spent all the time with either my family or my friends, them being either old ones or new, coming back to the UK feels a bit weird, knowing that there isn't the same lifestyle we Maltese are used to. I do love it here, with Central London being just a mere half hour away, whilst doing something I enjoy, with some pretty cool people who quickly became really good friends too, but I guess home is always home, and one should keep a place in their heart for it no matter what, for there is no place like it.
To all the folks on that rock in the middle of the Mediterranean that we call home, I miss you! And I am quite sure, I'll see you all again soon. ;)
P.S.: It's been 4 days now cannot get this track out of my head !!
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